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Saturday, September 13, 2003
Ah fark, I just spilt water all over myself, yeh smart one Tanya. I'm so bored, I can't believe I have to waste away at my computer for another week. Soph's gonna chuck, Ben doesn't like it...I'll miss out on taxing stuff from Stoner's party and aaaargh, this blog layout needs serious updating. I was on the phone to Ben last night, atm I'm sick and I was coughing up blood, he advised me to go to a doctor but I can't be arsed. I feel really bad, I've been talking about death/dying and shit heaps to him and I feel really sorry for him to put up with it. I'm sorry Ben! I love you heaps okay? Anyway, off I go...bye bye  jamie sullivan Which 'A Walk to Remember' character(s) do you resemble the most (female)? brought to you by Quizilla Friday, September 12, 2003
here's my favourite quote by Rei Ayanami from Neon Genesis Evangelion: Mountain, heavy are the mountains But that changes, with the passage of time Sky, blue sky, what your eyes can't see, what your eyes can see The sun, one, only one Water, it is agreeable, Commander Ikari Flowers, so many the same, so many without purpose Sky, sky of red, red the color, the color I hate Liquid flows, it drips, ripples, and pours Blood, scent of blood, woman who does not bleed From the red soil the humans come Humans made by man and woman City, a human creation Eva, a human creation as well What are humans? Are they creations of God? Humans, that which is created by humans This is that which is mine My life, my heart I am a vessel for my thoughts The entry plug, the throne of the soul Who is this? This is me Who am I? What am I? What am I? What am I? I am I. This object that is, is myself That which forms me This is the self that can be seen, and yet this is not like that which is myself A strange feeling My body feels as if it is melting I can no longer see myself My form, my shape fades from view Awareness dawns of someone who is not me Who is here? There? Beyond me, here Shinji This person I know, Major Katsuragi Dr. Akagi People, my classmates The pilot of Unit Two Commander Ikari Who are you? Who are you? Who are you? There's one that's waiting there for you 'Cause I believe when I saw you That when you want something enough Then it can't escape your love There is nothing in the world that cannot be If you believe Never wished for material thing Never needed wind in my wings I never wished for anything but you I can't explain it Someone just told me Go where your heart is You'll never be lonely" I'm obsessed with 'A Walk to Remember' which stars Mandy Moore and the gorgeous Shane West. It's such a touching story and it always makes me cry. I've just found out I have to spend an extra week in Nsw, which sucks balls cos I hate it here. Dad's a fuckhead..$100 extra bucks isn't going to hurt him, if he didn't have his bloody girlfriend over then he wouldn't have a problem, maybe if he NEVER had a girlfriend in the first place then we would be financially fine. I swear he thinks he is made of money, but he doesn't know that he is majorly in Debt, and why does he lie to me about his money problems all the time? and when he can't be bothered doing anything why does he make up some other story. Thank god, Aunty Joan supports my views and not Dad's. She's not too impressed with his girlfriend either, and she always reassures me that I can move out whenever I want after I turn 16. But if I'm going to do that, I'll have to get a job and save up to rent a place of my own. Hopefully, I'll be able to live in Tasmania for the rest of my schooling years, It would just fuck me up if I had to go to school in sydney for years 11&12. Dad's always saying 'I don't know how I'm going to pay for it, I havent paid for any of your Friends' fees so far' what a fuckup, I wouldn't be at friends if he didn't pay for it now and what about Gran's inheritence? Surely I remember her something saying how his inheritance goes to me and James for our schooling. I miss her so much, I miss Ben aswell. Somebody just kill me and leave me here to bleed. Tuesday, September 09, 2003
 You're Cecilia Lisbon, the youngest daughter! Which Lisbon Sister from The Virgin Suicides are you? brought to you by Quizilla Hooray, it's school holidays. I'm up here in sunny Bateman's Bay which sucks penis cos I miss Ben heaps. I really like the relationship I have with him. For some reason, everytime I kiss him I get this really nice feeling inside of me that I haven't had before with other people, strange isn't it? I've updated my website heaps because I've had nothing better to do with my life and I'm an internet junkie anyway. DanYell came over yesterday and it was cool to hang with her again. Now I'm really bored. Oh Ben wrote the sweetest poem about me the other day, it made me cry heaps because I miss him soo much! Putting a spring in my step as I go on my way, A beautiful voice that rings in my head, And stays there long after I go to bed, Genius jokes that me make grin, Making me realise there is no better girl I could win, Without her I don't think I could live, There's no one I'd rather be with. Aww, it's so sweet, I can't get over it. I love him so much. Anyway, I'll bail catchyas!
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