Burn bitch burn...
I'm in creative writing, I'm supposed to be writing a children's picture book, but I can't be bothered at the moment. I got my year 10 formal invite yesterday and you have to pay $45.50 when you RSVP which sucks major ass. Me and the girls are hiring a double decker bus to get to the formal in and it's going to be so cool. My friends invited Ben to the after formal, but he doesn't want to come...I really want him to, but I guess he doesn't have to come if he doesn't want to.
mmm, I can smell nice food coming from the foods room. I'm hungry now, damn I like never eat when I'm supposed to but when I'm in front of people I pig out like there's no tomorrow, I guess I don't want people to think I'm ana because they say I'm really skinny.
Well I'm bailing.
*update*
Okay, Ben called me up and we sorted things out, so I'm fine now...thank god :)
oo, I just read someone's blog and found some interesting lyrics.
"And I don't care if you don't love me
And I don't care if you won't change
I could live inside the shadow that I cast on you
And the myth that you would stay
And I'll be home before the morning comes,
You won't have to be alone
And I try but I'm not convincing
Your lips, they pout and twist
And I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you.
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need
Just keep me guessing please"
Hmm, what's a word that could describe what I'm feeling right now?
Shattered, Ripped, Torn, Distorted are a possible four. Yep that's right, Smiley Smiley Tan Tans is unhappy and all because of him (Ben). Okay, on weekends he's an absolute angel and during weekdays at school he's a complete arse....umm hello? To him, it seems that the situation is "Oh I talked to her and spent time with her during the weekend but please not at school". Today he called me a loser when I tried to talk to him. He's right, I am a loser, I let him use me and all because I love him so much. Eventhough he warned me by saying "no I am using you, can we please stop" I said "no I don't mind, I just want to make you happy" and now, my friends have frowned upon me because of my stupidity. I just want to apologise to everyone. I'm so sorry.
Friday night:
-I went up to Jade's shack with Anna, Annie and Colette.
-We got there and everyone's pissed off their head.
-Bogans rocked up started a fight
-Called the cops
-Went to bed
-Started girly sexual threesomes
-Went to sleep.
Saturday Night:
-Went for a cruise with chris rowbottom and his friend
-rescued his friend's dad from causing a fight
-went bar hopping in salamanca
-went home
Yeh what a great weekend.
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